I think i have to be straight and right to concrete .
Well , i know you for more 1 year , i know you can be a good guy , i know you have skills and potential to join us . But you don't really show your good behavior here despite your good intentions . I can give you tips for increase your chances and take those advices seriously if you really want to join us .
Avoid spamming like answering at every comments like multi replies, if you wanna share your opinion to our replies , just wait some answers and reply it in one block, it will be more credible and niccer for us to read and also avoid caps .
And also , begging in pm (you're not the only one to beg) isn't a good way also to change our mind , contrariwise it will be worse for you .
And for skills , you have the potential .
To conclude , listen to my advices and i can give you a YES for sure , but for the moment , i'm neutral
Good luck , greetings
SuperNova